every day. every fucking day i made sure you were ok. i made sure you were the happiest you could be. i gave you a shelter when you had nowhere to go, food when you had not a penny to spare, love when you had nobody to talk to… i gave you the world. i gave you every part of me. and you destroy me… just like that. i’m here. i can’t feel anything and the thought of being with somebody sickens me. i hate everything around me and i’ve become bitter. you are so selfish. i will never forgive you, but i will always love you.

What I want? I don’t know. I can’t tell you. I know for sure that I want to be loved. I want to be loved but not for solely my personality, but for who I am as a whole. I want to be loved with all of the ridiculous flaws and emotional baggage I come with. Not only do I want to be loved in that way, but I want to love in return. I’m tired of feeling this void inside of me. I’m tired of not being able to feel anything aside from sadness or indifference. I just can’t wait for the day that I can wake up next to somebody and feel at peace. 

rushings:

someone come do cute stuff with me like fuck me so hard i cant walk

(Source: rushings)